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sorry everyone for my attitude.
i dont need anyone's counselling.
or what. i have learnt to stand on my two feet.
did anyone notice my eyes red this morning? i guess the sky was dark
and no one notice
and you would never bother with my posts.

i guess u already know who the you im referring to is.
it is the same you ever since 1 year ago.
i have stopped doing secret posts.
because someone copied some of my things and pasted to someone else whom i fucking hate now.
(hint: a post where i shot alot of ppl)
that made me really angry and pissed.

anyway, seems u are already so happy with everyone around you.
your laughter still echoes even when i watched the stars laughing at me yesterday.

did you know many people are chasing you?
my information is never wrong.

i will take a step back and look at the universe.
you are the world to me, but i guess,
im just an burden to you.

the things i do for you are fake.
the little things he does make your world spin.
come to think of it.



所以我 才静静守着你

i am almost at the verge of giving up.
hooray for you.
im really tired and old already.
someone told me she didnt notice that my back view looked so hagged and old.

i swore to wait for you. and i will. but im not sure how long i can hold on..

to another person: (hint: guy)
did u know i can use my position to ask you fuck off?
call me abusing my powers or what. i believe what im doing is right.
say what you want. ill be the bad guy if there is no choice.
u know how many people feel u suck? how u changed? how ur so fucking useless.
only know how to big mouth. and there act so hypocrisy. come school play game if not is play around.
u screwed me once. and u just did so again 3 mornings ago.
u can fuck off. i/we dont need burdens like you plus you dont even BELONG.
every negative thing
u think of me is wrong.
i swear it.

to make me forget you.
i tried to make u hate me.
so in turn, i would hate you.

but it didnt turn out as planned.
i felt worse. much worse.
now im hurting so much,
im sure ur happy.

now ill just drift.
and somehow someday die unexpectedly.
aiya suan le la. type finish liao suddenly no mood. fuck. deleted whole entry

Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...

All I want for Christmas is you... baby

this is a shit song,
as in hear liao not nice,
but i understand why so many people hear this song,
because the lyrics matches what i feel & want exactly ):



there're many things i wanted to do but its beyond my reach...

i wanted to be able to sing,
to sing with my everything,
to sing with my all,
my soul,

to let everyone who hears understand
what im feeling, what im thinking
through my actions, my words, my everything

i guess no one would really understand wad im saying tho,
but yea, hahaha ):

Onitsuka Chihiro's "月光"

guess i wont be able to achieve such things.

that's why there exists these words called " dreams" & " wishes"

but my greatest wish,
the one i would never, ever, expect,
to realise,
to come true,

really did come true.

thank you ((:



im sorry to spoil such a happy and high atmosphere
but im feeling fucking fucked up.

im not locking this post so ya.
im not afraid of being shot at.
come la. attack me all u want. i dun give 2 fucks

i can be studying for my DBMS Paper @ 12am
but u fucking made me fucked up.
my Paper is @ 830 or 8am tomorrow.
i havent started.

chee bye. faggot. who the fuck u think u are.
senior so wad. like u think u know ur so right?
saying i help other event so people can see me as a god?
lanjiao, will i sacrifice mi time, money, resources, sleep, studies, MY OWN EVENT?
just so i can be seen as a god?

im doing it out of fucking good will. i helped other people
and this is the fucking shit i get?
somemore, so what if i said dun come fuck up with my meeting,
also never say u, u dont have a sense of humour.
den down have so much grievances.

u keep chu stunt say wan help this help that
then in the end, never turn up.

so what?

ok fine, its up to u,
i believe in my people, mi friends.
i dont need to win ur favour. u nothing to do come find trouble.
no wonder, i scared i say out everything u nowhere to hide nia.
im not that bastard of a cheebye though.
i dont backstab like a sissy, unlike u

good night.


* Kellyn changes msn nick to HAPPYBIRTHDAYTSY! *

(1:20 PM) Kaweng: mi birthday oso
(1:20 PM) HAPPYBIRTHDAYTSY: really meh?
(1:21 PM) Kaweng: ya
(1:22 PM) HAPPYBIRTHDAYTSY: seriously serious?
(1:22 PM) Kaweng: yea
(1:22 PM) HAPPYBIRTHDAYTSY: u dun later i wish u happy birthday den u say bluff u la
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: nono
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: i see ur nick den say 1
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: lol
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: if nt i wont bother saying
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: coz no one rmbs
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: ..
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: ):
(1:23 PM) HAPPYBIRTHDAYTSY: really really is ur birthday ah?
(1:23 PM) Kaweng: ya
(1:24 PM) Kaweng: aiya dunnid la
(1:24 PM) Kaweng: no one rmb anw
(1:24 PM) Kaweng: b
(1:25 PM) Kaweng: now i know y ur called kellyn, bodoh sia
(1:26 PM) Kaweng: lol
(1:26 PM) Kaweng: xD
(1:27 PM) HAPPYBIRTHDAYTSY! has changed his/her status to Away
(1:27 PM) Kaweng: lol lol lol
(1:27 PM) Kaweng: i had fun
(1:27 PM) Kaweng: bb

thats how i started my morning today (saturday) wooo. a good laugh and im awake. hehehehe


my dream

sian la
tomorrow skip school again
ch they all wan go eat seoul @ taka
i really miss dem so no choice must go
hahahahah, dun scold me people T____T
den after that got fo meeting and fow meeting
in between also got sp star. i really want to see.
shirlyn nt participating dis year. ):

but then i gotta help fow.
coz some people may not be able to make it
i was asked to help more.
i totally understand actually.
if i were u, i may have actually shot myself

*singapore got sell gun?*
dont have! thats y got mrt track to jump.

i feel heavy,
alot of things depend on me,

yes, i make or break things now,
i hold things together,
given many responsibilities,
the ability to make selfish or charitable decisions.

i will not say im not humble
if i survive thru this,
i think i will disappear.
i wont appear again.
i will be a good boy,
go home sleep,
do homework,
maybe even appear in newspaper headlines
the very next day.


wa sui la. i dunno how to use livejournal.
so many function.
i see people post so nice can open close hide here there wa..

so just normal post lor. xD
i oso wanna skin this page but dunno how.

i guess this will be my non-locked post. wahahaha

i spent more than $600 on food in the last 2-3weeks alone.
how i noe? coz i dun keep money in wallet 1,
i see liao heart itchy itchy must spend
den withdraw spend withdraw spend

hais not i solo eat.
is emo abit treat people
everyone "steady la on la"
den oso money will go 1
play daidee for long time will
keep go buy drinks/food.
poly is expensive. _|_

cool. dis is my first post on money (:
hope it does not sound wrong.

EAT GRASS LA T_________T





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